forgive me?

last two days..i read this magazine..the 'remaja' magazine..so,it sorts of teenagers magazine..haha..usually i just bought this magazine not really often..i can count how many times i bought a year!!hee..perhaps once in 6 months??how bad am I!it's not like i am soo stingy or what..but i don't have heart to buy it sometimes..only if i'm in my mood to read all those magazines..if not,i just borrow from my sister or my friends..yeah..it's me..wee wee..okayh..today's main topic..i took a quiz from that magazine which it's all about forgiveness thingie..hurm..let see..the topic is..'Are you a person that easily forgive other people mistake??'
i took this quiz to see what is inside of me and what people might think about me and who am I.it's like all the time if i made a mistake,i seek for forgiveness and what i hope is other people can forgive me easily..but how i think if other people made a mistake,can i easily forgive them??and i want to know if i'm easily forgive other people or not..so,i tried this quiz..well,after i did the quiz..i found that:

I am easily forgive other people but hard to accept it

'forgive other people before i go bed is my routine,i don't like to make a conclusion of my day as horrible like yesterday..and i don't want to be feel like sophisticated about it..but what is the differences between me and others is i can easily forgive other people..maybe people might see that i don't want to talk with them after they did a mistake..but actually,frankly speaking..i forgive them already..i already forgive them after they did their mistake..hurm..hur hur..it just me..its my natural way..i really2 want to be friendly back after they did some mistake,what they have done..although it just a tiny single mistake..but i can't..don't ask me..and i already tried..sorry people??..i know it sounds like i am soo cruel maybe??but i told you..i forgive other people after they did their mistake but to accept and to face them back kinda take a short or longer time for me..i desired to talk with them again..especially if its happen with my own best friend,or or with my family!can u imagine that??it's totally the hardest way..my principe is if i get hurt deeply once,totally like if its a serious matter,forever i will hard to believe them again..it just enough for me to forgive them..but to accept them back is moderately hard for me..'

People might think that i am a bad person..sadistic..pathetic..but guys..i'm totally sorry..i try to change okayh..dats my promise..maybe i did all this because of my age??well u noe..teenager age...they oftenly like to 'memberontak'..and i'm not being matured..and maybe based on my experince too..my mom always said..'let people do to us ika,but don't we ever do anyhthing that can hurt or harm others'..yeah..it's true..i noe and i did that before and maybe i'm not be like this 'pathetic' or 'uneasily accept other people'..i emphasised that sentences..hurm..if one of my friend in my high school did something that never appreciate what i did for her,she tried to be a backstabber..tried to think that she's the one that should be fully loved by other people especially teachers and friends (it's not like i'm soo jealous with her okay!! but u noe..well3..)..sharing is caring la huh!..don't control other people so that people can love you only,she make my close guy friend which i share every single problems with him and also known as my twn brother not treat me properly anymore and doesn't care about me at all..even i'm the one that introduce her to him..she tried to close with all friends that i close..i don't even know wether its just a coincident or purposely or whatever words that u can replace it here..it just happen to me!!huu..and she tried to use other people for her own benefits..she told me before..people will never see her 'bad behaviour'..but i think i am so lucky to have an advantage that i can see her bad behaviour..it's totally horrible year for me..i'm always fall sick that year..and she doesn't care about me at all..i told you..it just what i feel..and i still can't accept her in my life today..i gave her so many time to change and chances but she just take it for granted..what else i can say..i'm not a PERFECT girl to judge and fixed other people..

bonding

'Does my head look big in this??'

oh boy..at last..i finished read this book..for so long i bought this..i mean not really long..like a few weeks only..maybe because i have no time to concentrate reading this book all the way..since like last two weeks my days were fulled with 2 LAN subjects classes..at night,i slept very early because i have to wake up early for the next morning..so,not really in mood to read..but today..as i gathered all my strength,i managed to finish this book.. the story was quite good..was okay for me..let me tell a little bit about this book..the story is about..

'A muslim girl who was born in Australia,she wearing a hijab or vein and she is a Muslim-Palestinian-Egyptian..how could she survive in the middle of the city of Australia..her decision to wear the hijab starting when she's in year 11 full-time takes a lot of guts..how she can manage to cope with the prejudice that happened around her..sort of like people look her from up to down of her appearance and looks her as a weird person,how people think a piece of material that she wearing on her head..and can she still attract the cutest boy in school??'..and its all about..and so on..

many things to write but i just summarise it..maybe in next few weeks,i can go out with someone to accompany me to go to KLCC..wanna to buy some other books at kinokuniya bookstore..well,i think kinokuniya have a lots of novels that we can search n variety of novels that we can choose..hurm..maybe i can grab one book only..because english novel quite expensive for me..but not at all..just some of it only..ahaha..and most important things..i am totally a very slower reader like a tortoise...no doubt for that darling..haha..i think i will stop now..since like i have nothing else to say..opss..to write..i'm typing right??well..u noe..typing replace my hands to write..ahah..blablabla..since..i'm out of an idea..so,gudnite people!hope tomorrow will be better than today..!

jasmine..

had fun just now.

met my fellow jasprincess..just a few of them.jasprincess stand for 'princess of jasmine'..the name was given because we were from 'jasmine dorm' in school..yeah..jasmine is a type of flower..maybe when some people heard this name..this is a dorm of MPP..okayh..whatsoever!!..haha..it just past and it will always remain in my heart n mind..being a person that have to hold the responsibilities as a MPP is not easy..i mean..although MPP is just the same like prefect like in other school..but i don't know we are different..we used to be hated by other people..because of why..it was sooooo stereotype..i tell u!once they heard that one MPP make a trouble..do this bad thing la..do this nonsence things la..change la..n so on..they will hate the whole entire group of people..i can say some of them judge us from outside and try to talk bad things behind us..although they never know us or eben talk to us..they simply like to be a judgemental person..hurm..but,honestly,i never regret who am I before..ok.ok..it's time for me to stop..i will stop with that yah..i just wanna to refresh my mind..try to recall back the nostalgia..but for me,i don mind..people like that would never be my friends..i don't like people that think they are too PERFECT..and don't care what they want to say about other people..many people make a mistake in their life..so,u can't blame us on that people..thanks to those that always supporting us from back,behind,in front and all side of the corner..i appreciate it..owh boy!!zalikha!!stop with that okayh!..past is past..and people will always and can change..bear that in your mind..p/s:i'm so sorry if anyone can get hurt with my words...

so,go on..had a barbeque last night..people that came;me,nina,kakna,deqna (they are twins..)hehe..nora,haire and ijam..basically haire n ijam were not included as jaszprincess..but we are very close with them..hurm..haha..it was totally awesome..we laugh n laugh all night..nora will never stop make us laugh..i don't know why..she always make us happy..with her cracking jokes..every single minutes we laugh until our stomach feel like going to be burst..i have no words to describe how much i miss them..yesterday gathering was like annual gathering for us..too sad that some of our members couldn't join the party because we don't have same holiday..except me..because i finished my matriculation already..and since i just stay at home..so,there will be no problem to go out with anyone..but with my parents permission la huh..haha..because i'm a girl..so,its not really good to go out so often..especially at night..wuaahhahah..

while we're stuffing our mouths,arguing about how many minutes we need on the treadmill for every bite..there's a cute boy attract our attention..n he is sooooo cute..his face like korean..wow..so hot..ahakx..like nora said..can be her husband..!!haha..ok..i talk nonsense here!!daaa..of course cannot..8 months boy want to be a husband to a girl that is 18 years old..can you see the differences between their age??OMG..btw,i'm sorry..again!!i make up the story..quack-quack..penguin!!ops!!not penguin!!quack-quack..so,it's a duck okayh..after we finished all..finished tidy up everythings..as usual..we did night talk session..i don't know what time i slept..this moment of time,we shared our problems..when we laugh,we laugh..but when we sad,we will always shared together...like people sad..sharing is caring right??so,that's what we try to practice..since long time not see each other..many things we want to talk about..it's not like we cannot share our problem with an outsider or other people that we are not very close..but sometimes we scared because of our experinces..friend sometimes can be a backstabber..sometimes they used us for their own benefits..it just not we cannot believe them but maybe it takes time to share our very privacy secrets..hurm..but it just my perception and point of views..i don't know about other's perception..maybe there are slightly different opinion from me..

then,just now..after we send kakna n deqna to bukit jalil LRT,me,nina and nora went to IOI mall..since like nora wanted to watch movie..so,we went there..and we watched this movie..no other nice movie at all that attract us..we are more likely love romantic movies..a typical teenagers like us..damn cool isn't it..haha..so,we decided to watch 'LOVE HAPPENS'..as for me,the movie was quite slow n totally out of my taste..i felt that movie was totally boring..i can give 1 and a half over 5 ONLY!!..erghh..and can u imagine..like very few people only in a cinema..it's about 10-15 people only..

huuhu..wee..snap a lot of pictures!!..yeaahaha..it's not like we are very3 'jakon' person..like a person that never found a camera in their own world..but its an annual gathering.people!.once a year only we can meet like this..because we are from different places..i mean different places not like other planet or somewhere else but from our house to another house..it's not like 5 minutes only we can walk n chit chat,chit chat like that..it takes time for 2-3 hours or more toone another..so,can imagine that huh..and maybe we have another comitment to do..i had a great time this two days..before we left,we have a bit of a kodak moment ang hug each other.

*more pictures i uploaded in the facebook..

randomly

people!people!people!
faster wake up!haha.mumbling myself.ALONE.tonight.sitting in front of the computer.start to press my keyboard very gently and softly.actually,i'm so lazy to update my blog nowadays..i don't have any ideas about that.but,farhanah already asked me to update my blog.muahahaha..
here it goes.like you wish my dear.

like usual..today,woke up at 6 something..make myself n get ready to go to college..today,is my final exam for the LAN subjects..basically n honestly,i'm not really understand what i learnt in malaysian studies..yeah..but i think not only me that could not understand what the lecturer teached us..n talking about that subject in front of the class every morning until noon..ha-ho-ha-..not suprise if i said most of the students have same feeling n thought like me!!a.aaa..eeerrr..iii...oooow...lalaala.. no doubt for that okie..but i hope i can pass the subject..just hoping..hehe..well,i was the 3rd last person that went out from the exam hall just now..like 'the'...why everyone went out so early??ok-ok..i noe the reason..u noe the reason??yeah..u should noe okayh!!have to!!i did the exam very slow..still can play with my pencil n look around..haha..hurm,then..had lunch with farhanah,usha,shaleen,yasmin n anand..me n farhanah ate first..and others ate later..farhanah was very hungry,so..i decided to accompany her 'makan'..haha..yea right??if farhanah read this..sure i'm dead..haha..because that's are totally not the legal reason..=pp

after that,studied islamic studies for a while..i read it already last night..and just want to make a last minute revisions to refresh back..went to class n finish it the paper..then,had a presentation about our project..which the project contribute like 30% for the entire marks..my topic was like 'discuss why women don't want to get married nowadays and how to prevent this problem'..sort of that..huhu..i think i did quite ok..i think..farhanah took my video..and i watched the video..and i was like soooo retarded..everytime also my hand move up and down by holding the pen or ..whatever the thing..i can't upload the video in here..since farhanah not send to me any video..haha..

HOORay for a while!!at last i completed my LAN subjects..now,i can enjoy my legal holidays..haha..oh dear..stop it with the 'legal' words..miahaha..but i like it..quack-quack-
looking forward for the plan for tomorrow..going to have a barbeque with my friends at nina's house..maybe 5 of us only..others cannot come..since like some of my jasprincess in matriculation..u know la some of matriculation are too far from K.L..huhu..i could wish that we can get together back like before..so hard to have the same free time together after we pursued our studies in different path ways of studying..ok!..stop with that emo mood..maybe nina will fetch me at my house after i come back from my dentist appoinment...my house n her house just nearby only..okayh..not really near.but still can be categorised as ''near''..haha..sounds nonsences..but that is a fact..how to say..near but not really near..haha..okie dokie..whatever..i just can't wait to meet them tomorrow..yeeeeehaaaa...here i come girls!!

gtg..i have no mood right now..someone might angry at me.huu...i don't know..but i felt that way..oh,god..maybe it just my feelings..but hope i can receive a good news tomorrow..

MS and IS!

torturing.sadistic.boringness.

just a PERFECT word to describe my starter of the day for today.

erghh..hate it when i have to wake up early after spent a week for my holiday..then have to continue wake up early every morning for this 2 weeks..ooouwhh..so beautiful isn't it..duh..i emphasised the beautiful word here..now,now..u get what i mean write??please2 and thank you..huuu..i am damn lazy weyh..seriously..i mean it..because today,i really had a terrible time for my morning time..owh..please..i don't have to mention it..5 hours to spend only on malaysian studies..it's like totally crazy..and i'm hunger for the excitedness of that subject..but still can't!!..the subject was totally boring!!for me..but i think most of my friends think and felt the way like i think..haha..no doubt for that my dear...but yet,luckly every 1 hour lecture,we still can have a break..wee..

feeewhh..the crazyness of malaysian studies!haha..

during break okie..=p

But then,my day become cheerful back like as usual..because of my islamic studies..though,at first,only me and hannah attend the class out of 7-8 people for AUSMAT march intake..and i feel awkward in that class..because too few people only..first time in my life got only 2 students attend the class..haha..but i am so proud with myself because i managed not to open my mouth every 5 or 10 seconds..i managed to do that okayh!!i just fall in love with my islamic studies..again!! after i finished my spm syllabus..i find it very interesting..the lecturer explained to us here and there almost perfectly..and i feel like i won't skip my islamic studies for this 2 weeks..i like islamic studies since i was small..so,not a big deal for that..i can cope easily for that subject..since like only just both of us in that class just now,so,the lecturer tend to ask us more and ask wether if we have any problem to ask him or not..haha..that's cool huh..we can ask anything that we not really sure..hurm..whatever it is..it is totally exciting to learn islamic studies for tomorrow..yeeehaaaa..=)

awards night!

yuhuu..awards night just passed by me..held on 19th November 2009..last thursday..from 6 p.m to 10 p.m..the last night that i could enjoy with my collegemate!!..yaaa..though,we have still a lot of days to spend after this for LAN subjects but days that we could spend only like a quarter of time..because we only same class for Malaysian studies!!perhaps!..huhu..okayh..stop with the dramatic action..hehe..for me,a quarter of time can be used with full of meaningful rite??so,that's what i'm gonna to do bebeyh.

i make myself sooo fast..then,i went to usha'a house..because my friends that same table with me are all over there..so,i asked my mum to sent me there..try to look forward what they are wearing and i tried to fullfill my time with touch up a little bit of my make up..ok3..honestly..i'm not a perfectionist in make up..so,i will just put the make up on my face..simply okayh!!haha..last time,i told one of my friend that tried to comment on my make up..i said to him..he can see me in a beautiful perfectionist appearance with a gorgeous make up when i get married 6-7 years later..hahaha..6-7 years later????cool huh?maybe it's too late some of them to get married..but for me..i want it to be planned like that..i just want to graduate first,then work and have my own satisfaction on here and there..hurm..)

The most unwanted part was..we had an accident a little bit at usha's housing area..not really housing area..just in front of her house..hurm..actually,kelly wanted to reverse her car...then maybe the sensor not really cover all the sight..and she didn't realised that got car behind us..so,she accidentally bang the car...the car was static..and that car was volvo..okayh..luckly not the new volvo but its OLD VOLVO..!!hurm..go on..the owner of the car wanted a big of 'ganti rugi' for that..honestly..i went out from the car and try to look wether it is serious or not..and guess what...his car was nothing!!!no scratch at ALL!! AT ALL!!..can you read my lips??if yes,good job!!erghh..that guy damn..annoying!!..i think kelly's car was more in troublesome..i think she have to change her bumper and her plat no..then,kelly called her dad and told him..and he asked her to take a picture..h0ho..that malay guy was like totally pale in blue..don't know why..maybe because he scared that his car can just be polished only..and not a big serious scratch or watever..so,maybe he will think how he can get the 'ganti rugi' right..erghhh..yah..i admit that we did a mistake..he's not wrong at all..but can't you just settle it with a polite manner man..??maybe we can give him a RM50 at most to polish his car..because his car was totally FINE compared to kelly's car..but whatever it is..hope kelly can settled it with that man.

here some pictures in awards night ceremony..i just upload a little bit only..more pictures i uploaded in facebook..thank you..=)

KLCC

hello reader! =)
i'm back..yes!i'm back..it's totally me..
hooray..at last i can update my blog for a long time has been away from blogging..because i get easily addicted to blog if i start once..haha..first of all,i just finished my FINAL AUSMAT WACE EXAM a few days ago..hurm..conclusion for my exams..well,i will list all my subjects and how i can say about the exams.. haha..

1st paper : EALD known as English as Language and Dialect
I think this paper was ok..not really that hard n not really that easy..but i think the most difficult part was during the listening part..which i was not really can't understand the Australian accent..there are 2 part..but it just only for one part that i cannot understand..another part of question..i can understand what they are talking about..but the overall is i'm still scared about my EALD paper.

2nd paper : Applicable Mathematics

I really don't want to talk much about this PAPER..because i was totally SCREWED up the PAPER..i just can't help about it..hurm..i know2..i didn't do so much much effort for this subjects..but it's too hard for me..and i still wondering why i took this subject at the first place..hurm..*sigh**..Discreet Math is much easy than applics i guess..daaaa.i am such a BUMMER..!

3rd & 4th paper : Economics and Psychology

Hurm..guess what??i can get easily crazy when this two subjects were combined together..damn S***KS weyh..it's not i cannot do..but it is two subjects which we have to think hardly and memorise hardly about the topics..i studied hard for this two subjects..like almost everday i kept repeating reading the same things..and i can vomit to read again n again..duhh..but i think i did quite okay for my psychology paper..but for my econs..i have no enough time to finish it..that is always be my problem if i have to get through all the economics paper from sem1 until sem2 n until my final..errrrghhh..damn it..i hate dat..

5th paper : Accounting

Accounting was ok..not really that hard..i think its more easy than 2008 past year paper..i can do a lot of question also..but still not have enough time..although i didn't put down my pen at all for a second..i kept continue doing all the question..and yet not enough time..i am damn upset weyh..because i know i can do..but hopefully my marks will be ok..

so,that's the conclusion of my final exams..haha..seriously FINAL exam for my matriculation..i hope my TER will be fine..so,i can proceeds to my degree next year..obviously,i will counted my TER with the best 4 subjects;which is psycho,EALD,accounts and econs..owh,no applics okayh..no..thanks!duh..huhu..no more AUSMAT syllabus that i have to learn after this..huhu..gonna missed a lot of things that related with AUSMAT..my collegemate,my lecturers,our memories..huhu..sob3 =(

but we still have to study LAN subjects which is compulsory set by the government which is malaysian n islamic studies next week..maybe 2-3 weeks only before the exam..i mean LAN subjects exam..then,we will go our own way..maybe some of us will still continue study in sunway..but some of us are not..who knows..they will be pursue their studies so far far away..but i hope our memories will never end and remain forever in our heart n soul..ceyh..so dramatic..hahah..but seriously..i'm gonna mish them..

dotdotdot..

just now was fun..i really had a great time this morning..i went to KLCC with kamil..i am totally bored yesterday..i wanted to go out..but i don't know with who i want to go out..but then suddenly kamil called me last night and asked me wether i can go out with him or not to KLCC because he have to take some stuff that he booked at ZARA MAN..and i said YES for that..hoh0..

First,we went to kinokuniya bookstore..were there like 1 hour i think..the bookstore was nice..i like..i bought 1 book..i have to take my iniciative to improve my writing this time..so,during this 2 months before i can proceeds to my degree,i want to revise my grammar back for my broken communication..daaa...i know i am totally weak when it comes to speaking time..but i'm still in learning progress..haha..ok..so,just bought an english novel..not really thick..not really thin..not really in small writing..because i will not in mood if i have to read anything in small writing..haha..i mean for the first time to be an english novel reader..haha..it just me..tadaa..btw,i really2 can't wait to finish that book..wee..

At first,we wanted to watch 2012 movie..but the line was totally long and very crowded at the counter..i know..i know..it's a school holiday..everyone want to watch movie rite...??especially wednesday..hahaa...movie day!!..so,we cancelled our intention to watch..maybe next time..damn sad..but if we want to watch also..still we can't..because kamil have to go back early..since he had prom night tonight at sunway hotel for his SAM night..must be fun..can't wait for tomorrow..my AUSMAT awards night..and yet i haven't decided what i'm gonna to wear..maybe just a simple outfit perhaps..i don mind..the most important things,i want to enjoy for tomorrow's night..yeah..sadly,farhanah won't be there..huhu..sob3 =(

Then,we went to ZARA MAN,accompany kamil to take his stuff there..then,went to this eyewear shop to buy his contact lens..i don't want to say which shop..because there's a story behind this..guess what??..there was this one lady in that shop..she was like soooooo annoying..we donno why..like 'nak tak nak' to entertain us..i was like what the **** weyh..i hate that kind of people..why u can't just give us a beautiful smile..so we can buy many contact lens from your shop..ahahaha..*sigh*..my sentences doesn't make any sense..ahah..ridiculous want to buy a lot of contact just because for 1 smile..what i try to explain here is that lady have to respect others..okay..i admit we looks very very young..like high school students but we have feelings also..we can know which is good and which is bad..u don't have to show us your dislike face or whatever *bluerk* face..we ARE customer..we have right..so,thats your job to entertain us..duhh..whatever,lucky they sell reasonable price for the contact lens compared to others..if not,we will never want to buy at your shop lady..but thanks to another lady..because make our mood to cheer up back..=)

she was nice..she talked n explained to us very polite..i appreciate that..hurm..=)

After that,we went to dessert's bar..we want to try something new..and kamil was interested with the ice-cream..but at the end..he didn't order the ice-cream also..we ate a set of sandwich and a smoothies..it was totally nice and the food is very healthy..and the price not really expensive..i think it's worth it..and i just fall in love with that place..with the foods..and and very nice waiter overthere..they are friendly..hurm..=))..and we go back after that..here's some pictures that we managed to snap..outside was raining just now so we couldn't take any picture..damn sad..but it was enjoyable..thanks kamil!!glad to go out with you again next time..